hey..today is our 7th monthsary and he wished me...
Hmm... Exams coming up next month and have to start preparing already.. Gonna graduate and find a job... Hopefully can go poly straight.. Gonna sign in the direct admission from ite on the 8th feb.. Hopefully my gpa will be 3 and above.. But currently was onlt 2.8...haizzz... Need to put in extra hard man...

Im juz sometime confused.. Y i have to be ego and behave tiz way..? M i too paranoid of losing him or juz dun wan bad tings to happen again..? Hmm... Trying myself to stay calm whateva it is and be like last time that i use to be.. Caring and loving.. And stop all this fighting and arguing commotions..
Like i always sae if theres a will theres a way..

Old daes...

hello reader..
its been long since i update it... hmmmm...

i juz miss those old daes and times that we had together..
those laughter and happiness that we share...
i juz wish i could turn back those times and be who we are now..

people changing from time to time...
alot have change since last time...
haizzz ... juz dunnoe wad to do... can i get back those happiness
and joy that we all share together?

i juz dunnoe suddenly my tears juz rolling from my eyes..haizzz...
i guess only god noes how much ive been suffering...
juz wanna be like last time again...
t.cr

life is miserable for me eventhough it looks fine when wit me.. I cant be afford to lose all my loved ones at one go.. It will be a great blow for me.. Y isit u juz dun bother anymore..?

hey, its been a long time since i didnt update tat much...
Hmm, now having my holidays and it left with 3 more months before i graduate... Juz dunnoe wer im heading next and wad to do... Juz wanna continue studies but at the same time i feel like working..? Wad should i do...
Nv mind this at the later part can decide..
Hmm... Juz came back from kota tinggi last thur, and it was rather fun, the water was damn cold that i shiver most of the time..haha..
the journey was like 1 hour from JB..

My injury is getting better coz i stop all my bowling training and activities unless theres tournament or so...
I wanted to join league but pertaining to my condition i better refrain myself from doing tha..

Hmmm.... Life is full of ups and down..
juz wish tat i could run away from all the miserable life..
juz hate it when tiz happen again..
the phobia and misery still left a mark inside me that i will
noeve forget.haizz.

wat a life...
hmm.. like i sae.. have to accept the fact of life that have to bear with it..

now in school doing my ACCPAC study...
long time didnt get to update my blogg.. no time for all this

upcoming events:
21Nov- Amazing Race NEBO
22Nov- Bowling tournament
27Nov- Hari Raya Korban
6 Dec- Aranda Bowling Tournament
13 Dec- Masjid Bowling Tournament
20 Dec- Pertapis Youth Bowling Tournament..

Do Give me Ur Full Support Aites...
t.cr will update again once im free..t.cr

BEen rather BZ tiz few daez with my activity and sch...
;like no time to spent wit frenz and family..
haizz,, pple keep complaining again and again..
haizz... hmmm...
been thinking wen will my life been complete with
people the 1 i love to be by my side and not finding fault with me
always.. haizzz...
hmm.. im in rather a difficult situation...
i juz dunnoe wad to do.. in the end i juz stood there SPEECHLESS..
and heLPLESS.. dunnoe Wad to do..
haizzz.. days passed and im still suffering in the darkness of me!!

hmm.... juz hope that those misery could end...

Todae supposingly sch end at 1pm but have to realise early at 11am
coz ader bowling training at S.T...
hmm met adi and afiq at tamp to eat our lunch 1st before heading to
ST...
Reach there at 1plus then we start training with my frenz..
i will be playing for the 1st team with esther, nurin and aina.. they
are good players too.. hmm.. will double up with esther tiz sat..
hmm, she support me alot..haha...

tiz sat have to be there at 8.30am.. siang sei and the roll off at 9am..

coonfirm penat sei..but muz do my bez to get high score..haha

hmm... kinda thinking alot tiz few daez and im so so so tired sei... mcm
nak pengsan sei.. im getting lack of sleep and tire myself out..
hmm...nk saket pon.. bdn rase mcm tk sedap sei...

gonna rest..
tc
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yesterday been having training for my POL-ITE tournament at Safra Tamp..
It starts at 1pm and i have to end my school early at 11 am and rush to ST..
had training or 4 hours rom 1pm-5pm..
so tiring...

went home and celebrate Dad's Birhtday.
19/10 was his bdae...
hmm, went to rassa Thai at bEdok reservoir to eat..
dad nowadays not well been having fever and tk baik2..
im worried of his health sei...
lpas 1 saket, satu sei... hmm.... juz have to endure it jek...


update lter,...bubye

TOURNAMENT

Juz finish my attachment recently...
and sch holiday is over..
i didnt get to enjoy myself coz during holiday i muz work.. haha so sianz..
now new term starts.. 6 more days to go..
on 14 oct, had inter school bowling tournament at SAFRA YISHUN.. hmm..
we won 1st and i won 2nd for individuals..
received 2 medals..
n guess wad! im selected to go for POLITE tournament tiz 24oct..
hmm.. its poly vs ite...
last year didnt win anything but this year will try to achieve something..
hmm...
been having training last fri, tiz mon, and wed...
body all start to ache again.. haha..
nv mind at least ive done sch proud..hehe

dOEs u deserve a 2nd chance?

hmm... been thinking alot tiz few daez..
n i juz dunnoe wad im suppose to do..
to leave u or continue wit u??
juz have tiz mixed feelings playing around my mind..
y u have to do tiz to me?? do i deserve all tiz?

NO! NO! nO!.
i deserve somthing more nice...
haizz...
been wondering should i give him a chance..
but it juz tat im totally heartbroken and my heart ache alot..
no 1 can feel tat way actually.. hmm.. whenever talk to him, i juz feel
that my heart is burning.. i tried to control it but it seems
didnt go away.. so pissed off.. i juz want u to understand me and respect me
tats all... can U!???

i juz need time to be heal and decide wat i should do..
like wad my frenz said, i have plenty of time to decide and
dont rush things coz scared that i might regret...
juz hope he will change for the better and will not repeat it over and over again..
i have enuf of all tiz, i cant continue on been deceiving all the time..
i cant be giving in anymore,.. u should noe how i feel...
i juz wanna say sorie if i were a change person.. but now i have to stand on my
own n speak up for myself..!
haizz... u will oe my result soon but juz dunnoe wen..
juz treat me nice and respect for who i are kays..

* juz bear thiz in mind, if u treat me nice
i will treat u nice.. so dun tink tat i dun have feelings..

once i made my decision already, no1 can turn and chg it..
so b4 u regret plz amend it well..
t.c